Russ and I have known each other for a little over 5 years. The majority of our time together was spent in friendship and 2 years of that as room-mates. Even after I moved out on my own, our friendship never waivered, in fact that is what led way to our time together advancing into an actual relationship. During that time we both were involved with other people and as such, we both ended up single, but no, we never thought of each other as a back up plan. Once we realized that our time together was more along the lines of a relationship and one that just worked, I personally stopped analyzing it, let it go in whatever direction it wanted to head. When he first asked me to marry him, having been married twice already, I wasn’t ready to change what we already had going, frankly I think having dealt with an emotional past and then thinking about what I went through with Hotness, I just couldn’t see past all of that as to who he was, someone who wasn’t any of those.
The great thing about what we have, is aside from knowing that legally we both have to do what the other says (joking of course), nothing has changed. We still compete in our pool tournaments, I still have girlie-nite outs, he has his usual guy bonding time and our fur-babies are now officially siblings. When it comes down to it, our time together still consists of us sleeping on a California King with him having only 6 inches to spare (hey I like to stretch out), he still makes the morning coffee and together we decide on breakfast. We still spend a lot of time just driving around, picking up stuff from the store or just escaping the house for a bit with the guys.
There comes a time when the past needs to be left where it’s at, in the past. There is no doubt that I will always wonder and hope that those I have left behind have found their own happiness. It has been a long road, regardless of how you look at it, but like I had always been told by a man that I once loved, you don’t move straight, only forward. My blog has been 10+ years running, yes I too can’t believe how long I have used this site for venting, confessing, displaying pride, well just about anything that I feel needs to be done, at the time. I have shared some very emotional moments that I had gone through or was going through and despite that at times my life felt like the dark clouds above it would never let up, I am very thankful to be able to say that they have, not overnight by any means, but they did.
So, as this new direction in my life takes shape, it is time that I say goodbye to the blogging world, well on an entertainment only purpose. My appreciation for all who continued to read Tazz4vr through the years is indescribable and I sincerely thank you, but in reality, it’s time to, lol… move on, start living life for what it has to offer before it’s gone.
So to all my blogging peeps, best wishes. 🙂
Tazz4vr aka BadBadPuter.